In search of “Me”
YogaChi is Physical, Intellectual and Meditative Quests in Life.
In this Life, I find myself in this planet earth born as a human being, as the third child to my parents, Benjamin and Theresa. They are both Anglican Christian and I was naturally brought up an Anglican. But I had my schooling in a Catholic school simply because there was no school run the Anglican Diocese at that time. I went through the rituals of baptism, Sunday school and confirmation in the Anglican tradition. I also received good training in the scriptures through the Catholic school. We Christians believe that through Jesus we will go to Heaven as long as we do not mess up with the Ten Commandments. The Old Testament as a composite of books were very mysterious when I read them at the age from thirteen to sixteen. People have amazing longevity and there were stories of revenge and cruelty.
I came to Canada from Malaysia in 1965 to continue with my education in electronic engineering, physics and computer science. With a job offer, I decided to stay and make Canada my new home country. My schooling and job years have taken me to Montreal, Toronto, Vancouver and Edmonton.
All those years I still go to Anglican Church. While in Edmonton, I once went to a service when Dr. Randall Ivany who was an Archdeacon and who was the Ombudsman for Edmonton, when he outlined one’s quests for spirituality in the following sequence (1) Institutionalized (2) Intellectual and (3) Mystical. Each one initially will pursue the religion of one’s parents. That is when one will be institutionalized into their religion. The institution puts a mental loyalty boundary making one fearful to pursue another religion. If one has the inquisitive and the daring to learn from different religious and non-religious institutions, then one enters into the stage of “intellectual pursuit”. The last stage is when one picks up the idea of meditation, to pursue “experience of knowing”, then he or she enters the stage of “Mystical”. In Randall’s opinion, only through “meditation” will each of us discovers and experiences the mystery of God or Creator.
At the age of 12, I had a very short profound moment of awe and loss. I was wondering why am I thinking and feeling the way I am; why am I not experiencing the thinking and the feeling of another person. Why did I so suddenly come to this planet earth, why did I not go somewhere else? I actually felt very humanly alone in a quest which I was unable to define.
Then armed with the teaching of Dr. Randall Ivany, I begin to have critical inquiries. I must suggest that I had a very difficulty time to take the first step to look into Buddhism apart from Christianity. Once I come out the initial institution box so to speak, it became easier for me to even expand my exploration of other institutional teachings. I felt so much at ease when the Buddhist Master Lu told me that I did not have to give up Christianity when I embraced the Buddhist teaching. Master Lu said that I should continue to respect my past teachers if they had resonated with me. In this case it was the teachings of Jesus. I did not dwell deep into Buddhism because like Christianity it is based on “believing” and my knowledge of Chinese was very limited, so advanced texts in Buddhism were beyond my comprehension.
I began to look deep into philosophical, historical and scientific researchers and “critical thinkers” pursued by such people as Jordan Maxwell, Ken Cousens, Santo Bonnacci, Dr Bruce. Lipton, Gregg Braden, David Icke, Dr. Joe Dispenza, Barbara Ann Brennan, Drunvalo Melchizedek, and others. I went to meditations offered by different people and groups and studied with different psychic people. There was so many different layers of information; and, my goodness, the physicist Nassim Haramein found in the Old Testament, God also had been given the name of “Tretagrammaton”! What was going on??
One time at the Buddhist temple I met a lady No-We-Ta and she was the first to introduced me to the ideas of Ascended Masters and Cosmic Masters. I was influenced into looking into Yoga by Zena U., Chris B, Gerda K, Margo B. who are yoga teachers and the book entitled Autobiography of a Yogi by Paramahansa Yogananda. Then I began yoga training with the Yoga Association of Alberta. I had the opportunity to meet up with Roy Eugene Davis who was a direct disciple of Yogananda. He came to Edmonton twice and I met him twice. His influence on me to pursue Jnana and Samadhi was based on his remarks, from his observation of yogis in north America, they were and still is mostly identifying contorting the body as yoga. He said they were missing much of what yoga should really be. I asked him about “Enlightenment” and his answer was “Enlightenment is a process with an undefined Finale”.
I had a six hours private conversation with Swami Brahmanishanada, who was/is a Hindu Teacher; we shared many ideas and I must say I was very frustrated when he kept questioning me; where are you inside your body? Are you in your brain? Are you in your stomach? Are you in your kidneys? And so forth. I conceded that I did not know and hope he would give me an answer. He did not. I told him I am tired of believing in religions as every religion ask one to believe. I told him I want to “know” not “believe”. He said to me; Paul we have talked beyond religions. I am a Hindu Teacher, and I teach Hinduism. I must say after I told him “I want to know, and not believe” events unfolded to seemingly let me “know”.
Through No-We-Ta, I got to know Franklin T. His back ground was in Egyptian Yoga. I had some of the best meditation practices with him. For example, he would put us into extremely dark environment and this seemed to compelled a heightened sense of awareness; meaning I was trying to “sense my surroundings” more, with out my ability to see. He also had invited Ascended and Cosmic Masters to come during our meditation. He had always talked about “space people” such as the Pleaidians. One time he put a colleague, Brian, into hypnotic regression and Brian was able to recount his assignment to come to this planet from another system of world. I was there to take notes as Franklin put him into the hypnotic regression. Another time we sat on a bench outside a church and he recounted an experience that a Cosmic Master has taken him “out into space” and showed him our entire Milky Way Galaxy. His experience was exactly similar to the one told by my Buddhist Master when he was taken out deep into space and looked back at our galaxy. Franklin told me he is able to travel to different heavens, and if he were to “leave for the Yonder”, he would want to go to the Pleaidian Heaven. He said Cosmic Masters were/are able to create their own “special worlds out there” and their students would gravitate there.
When I thought I had enough of meditation methodologies, I was asked by two friends to visit a workshop given by two angels, Akasha and Asun. That was already 15 years ago. I did not want to go but they insisted that I should to at least try the introductory session on a Friday night. I went and I have been going to listen to them for the last fifteen years now. The angels are channelled by two messengers Usa (Craig Russell) and Excalibur (Jayde Dunser). These messengers can channel a whole host of Ascended Masters and Cosmic Masters. It is through their channelling that Jesus said he is/was from the “Golden Shrine Galaxy”. Any one interested can go the “Radiant Rose Academy, Vancouver, BC”. My old friend Bill M, who helped in the designed the Boeing 747, came to several such workshops with me. After several workshops, I asked him what did he think. He said to me: I think they were authentic. He said there were just too many layers of detail and too many seminars given by them for them to “make up the stories” so quickly. The most influential statement I learned from the Angel Akasha is: “Essential harmlessness to yourself and to others”. And from the Immortal Athena, she confirmed the existence of Multiverse and our universe is simply one of those within the Multiverse. The idea of multiverse by Athena, confirmed the information I received from my conversation with the Archangel Gabriel.
With all these teachings I slowly come to realize that I am actually a “Bubble of Intelligence” learning new information, increasing my awareness. I conclude: I am Intelligence. “Me” is the very intelligence that “I Am”.